Spiritual side

You guys, dun scold if u think i wasted yr time. I am just expressing my feelings .But i will be very happy if i can open some one mind up by telling this.

Have any one of u says some thing like " wow how good it is to be him " or " wow i wish to be like him" I have of theses thought spinning around my mind for my whole life thinking why is my father have so little money ? why i dun have a girl friend ? why my result is so poor ? why am i short ? why this why that? Sometimes it really makes me mad thinking of those stuff , and wasting my life by doing so. Since i came here, i had lost touch of my inner side acting without any conscious thinking ,living my live just like a robot, like there is always not enough speed and memories in my system and have craving more and more for it. Lets talk about love, the reason why i always "kena Ajek" tease by wen saying that she is not physically attractive like last time and i got bored staying together ,well to be honest some part of my brain really thinks that, but why do i think like that ??? i have been asking this question for a very long time .
Than today the answer just come into my head, this is because as says in the teaching of Buddha say we human is a greed creature ,we tend to seek more material stuff to satisfy our greediness like more money , beautiful wife , lost of power and those "ham sap" rich man go find 2nd wife. Why is this happening ?? this is because they are just looking and moving forward without any clueb about what they doing, but once u try to stop and have a look around , things might be very beautiful Take me for example i used to hate my family and like to look around girls ,i am very bad in handling relationship ,i tend to follow what so call my " feeling" , i see 1 like 1 , what Chinese say " like new neglect the old " and hurt a lot of ppl. Why do i act like that ??? because i dun stop and look around , of what caring family and lovely Girl friend i have. I keep on falling in the same mistake many times in my life,and wasting it . But now is not too late for me to realise that ii amm worng well i am gland that i try to stalle my self down thinking about this matter.

I am a grown man now ,i can say ii grow alot spiritually and not physically can i had already grown to the max only 165 cm hehe. Life for me now is so meaning full and beautiful. Ppl out there try to stop and appreciate what u have dint he like the naught kind who scold at their parents and like the ham sap lou go find "chicken" CAS Life is beautiful , yr family is Beautiful , yr wife is beautiful. If working ppl had long time didn't "balik kampung" try too call up yr parents and have a chat with then , working Man if u spend a lot of time working outside , when u go home give yr wife a kiss.

If ppl ask me what is the most valuable thing to me , i will say LOVE not just sharing love with yr wife or Girlfriend , but to yr friends ,family or maybe the ppl beside u , that the world will be a much beautiful place to live

=Gene=