Been very down this day...
My mood is in big fluctuation some time i am normal than suddenly i lost myself... i dunno why this happen to me i am very sorry to bebe cas of me she suffer, but living together is not an easy task , because we always face each other , there will have some friction happen... i just cant help me self doing so... so i tend to isolate myself... i dont know how to express my feeling i dun feel like hurting any 1... but ....
For the past few weeks i had been very quiet , very isolated , i feel like locking myself in a room i dun wanna c any 1 any thing... but but but.... now even i cant express in word... my speech ability is getting retarded...
Many Many things to do 2 assignment to go than exam... b4 this i had much more work than any 1 will imagine, work after work ,task over task, i felt like as if i cant breath... now the rubber reaches it max limit ( I SNAPPED) .....
I have no wan to talk to , family( i scare they worry), dear( end up argue) , frens (hard to express).
My life:
Assignment
Exam preparation( i not yet finish my assignment yet and exam in 3 weeks)
Eat
Shit
sleep
My life (after i snapped):
Assignment
Exam preparation
Eat
Shit
Sleep
Watch drama
Study about photography
very interested in getting a DSLR camera but no money , no support (papa got la but once he know the price i dun think he will be happy), now i dun even have to go aikido le....
i feel like a zombie, i am just very down down down...
Why i didnt learn more about meditation le earlier???
Really feel sick of my life... i hope i can return to the life when i was a kid , and go fish pond with papa , the time was the best time of my life... just living the moment of my life....
Does like my life like this .... i really dun like but i dun have the power to change in
=Gene=
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